Just in case I never mentioned this, something that truly inspires me is MUSIC.
It fills my soul and breaks down my walls and speaks to me when nothing else can. In the last few years I have really fallen in love with some Christian artists that came into my life exactly when I needed them and their lyrics were so perfect for my heart and where I was in the moment. One of my absolute faves is Kari Jobe…I am mildly obsessed with her Majestic album right now and when I heard she was coming to Grand Rapids for her Majestic Tour, I was sure that I had to be there!
If you have no clue who she is then check her out right now…I’ll wait (: http://karijobe.com
Thankfully I am blessed with some amazing friends who also were going and we were able to experience it together….these girls are the real deal ya’ll…(from left to right, Ashley, Selena, Me, Kelly, and Dee)…they are beautiful inside and out! I’m so thankful that my sweet friend Ashley from Chic & Pretty Events had someone take a picture of us all together because this almost never happens when I finally hang out with friends! Aren’t we adorable together??!! We were missing a few girls that couldn’t make it. but I can’t wait to see them next time for sure!
THIS song…it left me in a puddle of tears…because truth is I was still feeling completely broken inside and was trying to heal on my own more than I realized. As I stood there surrounded by friends and strangers, all with open hearts, I let go of some pretty heavy things that were weighing on my heart…mistakes I’ve made, things that have been done to me, and feelings of not being enough, not being worthy, feeling alone and lost and feeling like I don’t have a voice….feelings that I’ve kept locked up so far down in my spirit that I didn’t even know they were still there….but they were and they had been controlling how I see the world and how I react to people and everything that happens in my daily life.
Even when you don’t know it, hurt and pain can create a prison inside of you that will not allow you to have true JOY in your life and to GIVE and RECEIVE the LOVE that God intends.
I am so thankful that I laid all of these things at HIS feet again…but this time with my whole heart. I have faith that He will help me to take all the wrongs and use them to for good and to encourage someone to keep going, to keep fighting, to keep seeking God and His grace. Our weaknesses are our strengths through HIM.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. –2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Friends, I am pretty excited for this new path, God has been stirring inside of me for quite a while and He keeps leading me to tell my story, to not let my light stay hidden, but to SHINE for HIM. Often times, on the outside it can seem that someone has it all together, when truth is most of us do not….Lord knows I am a complete mess…but I’m still beautiful in HIS eyes. Thank goodness for that! I don’t know what all of this means, or where this will lead, but I am learning to say YES when He is placing things on my heart, no matter how scary or out of my comfort zone they may be.
Thank you friends for sharing this life and this journey with me <3